Louise, once again, I felt myself saying, "How does she know this is exactly how I feel?" I actually pulled my car over so that I could have uninterrupted time alone to listen to your words. After my complete burnout last year, from all of the types of experiences you mentioned, once I started back up again, I felt like I hadn't learned any lessons at all. In fact, I am going at warp speed now. My Trello goal-setting list for the year just keeps getting longer and longer. How much could I possible pack into the next quarter, the quarter after that, and how can I end the year? Every time I get a new idea that I want to try, I add it to the list. Yesterday, after playing again in alcohol inks, my first love, I decided - hell, time to teach another class. An email went out to 1800 people getting them ready for this new course and I put on my goal-setting list - open the course on June 1st. I just opened a course on March 7th. I have this feeling that I have to do a thousand things because I am multipassionate and because unlike you, I am 69, my time is getting shorter. You are so right that when you've been this type of person for many years, anything less feels like you are lazy and not living up to your potential. After my PhD at 59, I felt that I could do anything and I pretty much did. My to do list every day gets longer and longer and I am starting to feel trapped in my own hell.
I had another big aha moment when you spoke about working full time and have your creative gig on the side. I worked full time for five years when I discovered I had a talent for creating and teaching art and would have the most joyful time of exploration playing with alcohol inks. In fact, I taught classes as well as worked full time and I never felt overwhelmed. I was bringing in a great salary in my full time position and had hundreds of students in my classes. I left my job and the minute I did the pressure to now make art my full-time income became more and more crushing. Each year, the numbers were less and less and then the pandemic hit and everyone and their mother was teaching an e-course. I feel like I am always scrambling to get back to that good place again. Maybe I need to be on YouTube, Skillshare, Udemy, Patreon? So many options.
My husband lost his job in November and the pressure feels even more intense. In fact, I start a new part-time job on Monday in the educational field which could lead to more and I am excited because having this income will help ease this need to be a full time creative who is making use of all of the content in my classes.
After reading, Refuse To Choose, I now have a thorough understanding that I am a Scanner and someone who likes to try many things and then move on. But, after listening to you, I know that I will end up with burnout again if I keep at this pace. So, today, I am going through my goal-setting lists and span it out over two years.....and will not open the new course in June, but when it is finished and maybe sometime in the summer. I definitely want to zoom out and I want to thank you once again. I don't want to land in therapy again or suffer overwhelm. I will definitely read or listen to Cal's book. Sounds like another phenomenal read.
I have a little question for the Q&A : You have a background in games, what games inspires you, what have you done for games ? What kind of games do you enjoy playing? ( any of these hahah just cool to hear about, unless you have already talked about it in an older post somewhere)
And as always youre truly instilling a sense of calm in me i never thought id feel as a creative, everything u recommend, now like the cal newport book and other things on other posts, i wonder where theyve been all my life, im grateful i found you hahah.
Added book to cart , and one day , i hope to add whatever novels you write too, to cart :)
Louise, once again, I felt myself saying, "How does she know this is exactly how I feel?" I actually pulled my car over so that I could have uninterrupted time alone to listen to your words. After my complete burnout last year, from all of the types of experiences you mentioned, once I started back up again, I felt like I hadn't learned any lessons at all. In fact, I am going at warp speed now. My Trello goal-setting list for the year just keeps getting longer and longer. How much could I possible pack into the next quarter, the quarter after that, and how can I end the year? Every time I get a new idea that I want to try, I add it to the list. Yesterday, after playing again in alcohol inks, my first love, I decided - hell, time to teach another class. An email went out to 1800 people getting them ready for this new course and I put on my goal-setting list - open the course on June 1st. I just opened a course on March 7th. I have this feeling that I have to do a thousand things because I am multipassionate and because unlike you, I am 69, my time is getting shorter. You are so right that when you've been this type of person for many years, anything less feels like you are lazy and not living up to your potential. After my PhD at 59, I felt that I could do anything and I pretty much did. My to do list every day gets longer and longer and I am starting to feel trapped in my own hell.
I had another big aha moment when you spoke about working full time and have your creative gig on the side. I worked full time for five years when I discovered I had a talent for creating and teaching art and would have the most joyful time of exploration playing with alcohol inks. In fact, I taught classes as well as worked full time and I never felt overwhelmed. I was bringing in a great salary in my full time position and had hundreds of students in my classes. I left my job and the minute I did the pressure to now make art my full-time income became more and more crushing. Each year, the numbers were less and less and then the pandemic hit and everyone and their mother was teaching an e-course. I feel like I am always scrambling to get back to that good place again. Maybe I need to be on YouTube, Skillshare, Udemy, Patreon? So many options.
My husband lost his job in November and the pressure feels even more intense. In fact, I start a new part-time job on Monday in the educational field which could lead to more and I am excited because having this income will help ease this need to be a full time creative who is making use of all of the content in my classes.
After reading, Refuse To Choose, I now have a thorough understanding that I am a Scanner and someone who likes to try many things and then move on. But, after listening to you, I know that I will end up with burnout again if I keep at this pace. So, today, I am going through my goal-setting lists and span it out over two years.....and will not open the new course in June, but when it is finished and maybe sometime in the summer. I definitely want to zoom out and I want to thank you once again. I don't want to land in therapy again or suffer overwhelm. I will definitely read or listen to Cal's book. Sounds like another phenomenal read.
I have a little question for the Q&A : You have a background in games, what games inspires you, what have you done for games ? What kind of games do you enjoy playing? ( any of these hahah just cool to hear about, unless you have already talked about it in an older post somewhere)
And as always youre truly instilling a sense of calm in me i never thought id feel as a creative, everything u recommend, now like the cal newport book and other things on other posts, i wonder where theyve been all my life, im grateful i found you hahah.
Added book to cart , and one day , i hope to add whatever novels you write too, to cart :)
And thank you again for your insightful podcast 💖